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you're perfect. words i've heard multiple times. i don't think i am... thats the obvious modesty in me. maybe i do have the perfect personality that people look for but when they realize that, they think its fake. lets be honest.. perfection does not exist. talk about a ramble.. i suppose that's because i haven't used this medium for anything serious in a very long time.
i feel completely detached from basically everyone i know. i am awkward around good friends. i push people who want to get close to me away. i am deeply afraid of being lonely, yet i don't trust anyone enough because the last 7 years have shown me nothing promising, be it my mistake or by someone else. i honestly wanted to be married at this point in my life. i am tremendously jaded. i believe in love and happiness completely i strive for it really, but it's sooo hard for me to really fall. i may go through the motions, mainly because it's all i want.. in the back of my mind though i do not trust the other person one bit. just when i really really start to though i get slammed out of left field.
in other news.. i want to move back to worcester really really bad. with the exception of grams, it's the only place i've ever felt at home. i love it out there with everything i have. i love the city. the hustle and bustle.. it's amazing. i love my jobs. my factory is great.. middle class work is all i've wanted. i never aspired to have a high profile job. i felt it would be more rewarding for me to actually earn things than live on a million dollar salary and buy things whenever i want. pluuusss working at hot topic is pretty rad in itself.
burn everything down.
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[23 Oct 2007|05:18pm] |
soooo life has been absolutely ridiculous lately. i feel as though i'm going to be giving up on love soon, it just doesn't work out for me. whatevs i've still got amazing friends so it evens out.. or something like that.
work is retarded, it always will be.
5 year reunion coming up in a month or something like that i'm pumped on it.
riot.
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[03 Jun 2007|06:03pm] |
i own alot of shoes
have the greatest girl anyone could ask for
and am completely content in life right now.
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[18 Feb 2007|12:39am] |
mmm.. punk rock..
live through this.
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[06 Feb 2007|05:39am] |
fuck love.
i'm pretty emotionless right now.
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[30 Oct 2006|12:16pm] |
i met kane hodder yesterday.
i love worcester.
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[15 Oct 2006|05:30am] |
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
HELLO WORCESTER, GOOD BYE CHICOPEE!!
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[31 Jul 2006|04:43pm] |
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i love life.
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[29 Jul 2006|12:56pm] |
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friends lost with no explanation strikes me as wrong.
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[29 Jul 2006|10:27am] |
wah wah wah
bitch bitch bitch
moan moan moan
get over it.
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[20 Jul 2006|09:17pm] |
fuck you
get over yourself
stop thinking your something.
everyone is an elitist.
go fuck yourself.
maybe i'm paranoid, but i have rights.
everyone's turning their back.
but it's just to follow.
no fucking reason, but just to be cool
fuck you.
fuck all of you.
i've been wanting to say that for a while
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[29 Jun 2006|08:59pm] |
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once a skateboarder, always a skateboarder.
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[23 Jun 2006|05:46pm] |
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i'm sick of these conspiracy theories about 9/11
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[01 Jun 2006|06:10pm] |
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i love when cell phones get answered.
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[27 May 2006|10:46pm] |
today, while in boston, we ran into of all people....
STEVEN FUCKING TYLER.
yeah, the singer of aerosmith, same place i got ice cream...
never been star struck before...
wow
wierd.
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[23 May 2006|09:31pm] |
i got a new tattoo
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[15 May 2006|05:17am] |
worse night ever.
mainly due to me.
excellennnntttttt
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[27 Apr 2006|05:43am] |
day six of my new found vegetarianism.
word.
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[02 Apr 2006|11:25pm] |
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fucking kittie. haha
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[01 Apr 2006|12:23am] |
i love being disregarded.
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